Yeremyah’s Testimony

Hello. My name is Yeremyah.

This is my story of a lifelong struggle to find truth, true inner peace and happiness. I eventually found it by not looking at earthly things, but looking at heavenly treasures;

I was playing tennis at a high level, doing very well at school and, even as a 16-year-old, enjoyed a good relationship with my parents and family.

A bottle of alcohol changed all that.Alcohol is a sin.

One night I ran into a school friend. We bought a bottle each and drank the lot. It wasn’t long before I was an alcoholic. And didn’t care. I enjoyed the lifestyle, drinking, taking drugs and chasing girls. I joined a gang, and with my friends I smoked drugs, picked fights with strangers and vandalised everything from cars to schools. And within two months my life was rolling out of control downhill.

I gave up playing tennis: I was always too drunk or hung over to play; my relationship with my family deteriorated; I dropped out of school and I became violent because of the alcohol. But I neither saw nor realised what was happening. All I wanted was to hang out with my friends and party.

After some years of this high life, my health deteriorated badly. This I could see happening, but the partying and drinking was still more important. I believed I was immortal, and nothing would happen to me. I was foolish and blind.

I began working in a nightclub as a DJ. This opened a door to meeting many girls. I became sexually active, taking home different girls. Yet in hindsight I now realise that every morning when I awoke, I felt empty and unclean. Through the sexual encounters I yearned for being committed to one girl. I realised that sleeping with so many different girls made me feel incomplete and dirty.

I then began work in a strip club, managing the girl strippers, and began associating with hard core criminals and bikies, and my drinking problem worsened, boozing seven nights a week, smoking a packet of cigarettes a night, but through the drinking and partying, I yearned for true happiness.

I began developing health issues due to this lifestyle, I was taken to hospital. About then, I also noticed my memory was getting bad and I was becoming extremely violent. One morning a man approached me, asking the time. For no reason I turned and started to hit him. Why would I hit a person for simply asking me the time I wondered? The alcohol was turning me into a monster. I was arrested over this incident.

Not long after being released I was back at my old lifestyle but now I also began dealing in drugs and working with other drug dealers and criminals, and started to personally use amphetamines (speed). I would associate with other criminals and bikies regularly, drink continuously for two or three days, going without sleep or food, kept going by the drugs. You can imagine what this does to your body and mind, but I didn’t care!

I began to make more and more close friends in the strip club, brothel scene, bikies scene and the criminal underworld, being caught up with the love for money and power.

When I finished working at the strip club managing the girls, I started to work at a brothel and also what was called a “shooting gallery” where people went to use heroin and cocaine. There were many prostitutes that worked there. I witnessed many horrible things during this period, overdoses and people close to death. Numerous people died in that place. It’s shocking to see what drugs do to people, not just to their appearance but their behaviour and moods as well. I’ve seen people deteriorate within weeks from heroin use. It’s sad to see a healthy girl, happy and full of life one day and only weeks later, she’s sick and depressed. Drugs and alcohol bring only temporary happiness, but in the end only a flood of sadness and depression.

But for me things got even worse. One evening I went out with a couple of friends. In the early hours of the morning we sat drinking in a cafe. I left for five minutes and by the time I returned, one had been shot in the back of the head. He died later the same morning.

That makes you wonder about life. Death is so near and will come to each of us, sooner or later. But what happens then, I asked myself?

Next I saw my friends begin to turn on each other, even to stabbing and shooting. Some of my own “friends”, turned on me too. In this lifestyle of clubs and drinking and drugs, you cannot trust anyone. It was like something from a violent movie. This is absolutely ridiculous, I told myself. All over pride and greed, and I began to see the destructive realities of the lifestyle. Some of my friends were also getting locked up and sent to prison. I didn’t want to head the same way.

Then another long term friend of mine, who was a senior member of one of the bikie clubs was also shot and killed. This time in a dance club that we used to hang around till the early hours of the mornings. By now my eyes had really begun to open and I saw my lifestyle was a dangerous one.

But time went on until one morning, after drinking heavily and taking amphetamines, suddenly my right hand went numb. The numbness rose up my arm, then my whole right side of my body went numb. Eventually I couldn’t talk properly. I was taken to hospital. Through the commotion and the nurses placing me in a bed I was silently thinking, repeating to myself in my mind to the Creator, please help me, help me and I will change.

The incident scared me so much, I stopped drinking and taking drugs. I stopped going out all together and it wasn’t long before I slipped into a deep depression. I thought I was suffering withdrawal, and hoped it would pass in a week or so, but after about eight months, I was more empty and depressed than ever.

Now, for the first time in my life, I sat back with a sober mind and looked over my life: What did I have in my life? What is life all about? Is death the end? Why am I here? All these and other questions surfaced.

Deep down I was hurting. I felt lonely, depressed, empty, hopeless, with no sense of peace and without direction or purpose. From the void in my heart, I knew something was missing from my life.

My depression worsened until one morning I fell on my knees next to my bed and really prayed for the first time in my whole life: Dear Yahweh, please help me, I pled. I need your help. I’m so unhappy and depressed; please, Yahweh, help me. I need you so.

Shortly after this, I was told about a neighbour who was a Pastor. I’d never spoken to him before, but now I thought, great, I will go and have a talk with him. I went. I wanted to know what Yahweh could do for me.

I heard how Yahweh was prepared to forgive my wrongs and be part of my life. This was a great discovery because I didn’t think I was good enough to be loved and accepted by Yahweh. I was overwhelmed with excitement when I learned that heaven is real and that Yahshua Messiah has set me free from my sins and terrible life through His perfect, sinless life, His righteousness, and death. All I had to do was reach out and accept His forgiveness and His gift of righteousness, salvation and heaven, and that He would give me a new heart, a heart of obedience and love. I couldn’t wait to invite Yahshua into my heart.

Having asked Yahshua to be a part of my life, I went home. I sat, staring at the wall. Wow, was all I could utter. I had goose bumps all over. Something wonderful has just happened to me.

At last: true joy, peace, security and wonderful hope. For the first time in my life, the pain and loneliness in my heart was gone. I was overwhelmed. Also, in that instant of confession and surrender to Yahshua, I was cleansed of any desire for smoking cigarettes and drinking alcohol and taking drugs. In its place was a flood of love, joy, peace and hope. I wouldn’t trade that for anything belonging to the world.

It’s been a long and tough journey for me, but these days instead of starting out blindly, I start with a prayer instead. I ask Yahweh for wisdom, strength, courage, obedience, and guidance throughout the day and to fill me with His peace, joy, love and presence. I ask Him to be my support and shield and to carry me through the day. And I ask myself, how did I ever live without Yahshua?

I’d never have believed this change could have occurred in my life, but it has. My life is proof that Yahshua forgives us our past and loves us deeply. His love is unconditional and unlimited.

Walking with YahshuaI today have total assurance in my Saviours love and forgiveness and my going to heaven, because I have placed all my trust in Yahshua and keep my eyes focused on Him, and it’s a delight to keep Yahweh’s Laws and be obedient. It is this assurance of going to heaven that I have found in Yahshua that has truly brought so much peace and happiness into my life.

It was only when I began to turn my focus away from myself and earthly things and looked towards Yahshua and completely surrendered my heart and life to Him that I found true pardon and peace. It was only when I looked towards Yahshua that an inner light of joy in my heart ignited. Reader, I believe Yahweh brought you to my story, so you can know that Yahweh loves you too, and that you can also experience this wonderful joy if you place your eyes upon Him. Nothing in this world will give you true joy and fulfillment but looking to Yahweh and Yahshua.  Please learn from my mistakes, please do not follow the path I had chosen.

Deep in my heart I know that Yahshua is coming back soon for me to take me to heaven. You can also have this same joy and assurance when you place your trust in Him.

Most of my friends and associates I used to hang around from those days are dead now or in prison.  It’s sad to know what happened to them. I encourage everyone reading this, especially the younger readers, please learn from my mistakes, and never walk the same path I had done, and especially never walk the same path the people I used to know took.

My life is so much more wonderful these days because I know Yahweh. He gives an inner love and joy that no other can. Yahweh knows all my faults, and yet I know deep in my heart that He forgives me and loves me anyway. Yahweh is the perfect gift. He is my best friend, and He can be yours, too.

Mattithyah (Matthew) 6:33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

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